girl138

i feel like a broken record.

i don’t know what else to type. there is only one thing in my heart, and that’s emptiness. i love you so much and i think about you every second of every day. i feel like i can’t go on so much of the time. i don’t want to go on. i want the world to rewind so that i can hold you in my arms again. i miss you so much and i love you. i love you even more than you know that i do. more than everything i am supposed to love.

i know this is stupid. i know that i am crazy… but, i still don;t understand. i don’t understabd why you aren’t here. why i haven’t woken up from this nightmare. pretending that it’s a bad dream is getting harder. i want to wake up and see you next to me. i want to see you smile again.

i want i want i want i want

to die

i miss you so much. i just don’t understand how the world keeps moving. i can’t do it without you.. and i hate them for being able to.

Missing you. Thinking about you. Hating being here without you. Feeling Empty. Hating everything. The feelings never stop. It never stops hurting. I never stop aching for you. Not even for one second.

This time of year makes me sick. Lately, everything makes me sick. If I wasn’t so busy trying to pretend that I was ok for your baby brother, I would just lay down and never get up again. I would find you again.

I love you, Nana. I’d rather be with you.